Crying On The Stage

The past few days have been what many might call "Trying Times". I call them "Insanity Testers".

Will and I have done our first of many shows in Driven, I get to play n Children's ministry again, and Ms.Mary stepped down from all music areas at church. The performance was so cool, and a lot of people said they were proud of me. I had to pray for humbleness a lot, trust me.

Playing in children's ministry for the first time in like a month has been really difficult. It's like, I got into a good groove of how things were supposed to go, and then I forgot it all in the month. But nothing in my entire life was as bad as the performance this morning. First off, P.Ryan, gave me the song list at like 7:00 Saturday night, and then I had to put them all in different keys.

But when I got on stage and started playing:

• the keys were too high
• I couldn't play the chords right
• b/c of all that I actually got all teary eyed (why I don't know)

It was horrible, but instead of getting all mad and like walking out, I sat in a chair and listened to what P.Ryan was teaching. I couldn't believe it. It was on Humbleness, so it was like God answered my prayer in my time of need. Praise be to Him!

Also, b/c Ms.Mary stepped down, things have been going very differently. Chaotic if you will. Will and I are now in charge of Driven's band practices, and they don't seem as calm as they used to be. And, I won't even go into much detail on the children's band practices...omg. :-(